May 14: Its Ok. I give myself permission...

This bellow, its the most vulnerable, raw thing that I have ever posted. Im not gonna edit it... or fix it... Im just gonna post it exactly as it came and i felt it.

The thing is I sometimes write, but sometimes my feelings are two strong and fluent and fast and I cant sit and write them and I either make a video or make a memo.

I like to talk to myself. I like to talk out loud.... and this particular feelings I needed to release them, to say them so they would become more real. My intention would become more real, and my release also would be more real.... and me... posting this online.. feels like letting something go. Like when you do a letter and you burn it. Like when you make a which and whisper it. Its both... its release and its a which of embodying the calm water after the release. Its allowing myself to be.

and also my desire with this is for somebody to feel less alone... maybe... we all look so many different things... but we al feel sad, and angry, and heartbroken and lost and happiness and hope and trust and all of the emotions.... so today... this is mine.. at this point in my journey of finding myself. Of forgiving myself, of grieving, of accepting, of understanding, of acknowledging.....

Its Ok

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A few hours later... feeling so much better

feel so much better

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Before going to sleep.... more memoing...

May 14: Night

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