May 22 2024: What if…?

My heart it's like powerful horses running. Like a tsunami. Demands all my body attention, all my senses, kidnaps my brain as well. It's such an uncomfortable feeling, so powerful! 

It's like freezing cold and you can only think of a warm blanket. Like being thirsty or hungry you can only think about food and water. All my available resources are called upon by my strong emotions. When they are in disarray, from one or multiple sources, they demand to be detangled, to be sorted, to be acted on immediately.

But what if…. What if I stay… and don't do.. What if I stay and listen to the stampede , breathe deeply as I stay in the cold and resist hunger. What if I do nothing and I just feel, and watch and observe. What then? What if I just stay in these uncomfortable moments? What will I learn?